Well, I don't know why but the computer I have at home won't let me view this blog? Why? Hell if I know. -shakes fist at internet.- Piece of crap. As you can see, I hardly update it because of that fact. Hopefully I will get to more since I can access this from the school computer's but I do have MySpace...so check that one out!

I'll edit it with the link later.

Peace ppl! Later dayzs!

I know I haven't written in a long while but I haven't done much really. Today though was totally different...

 Well, today I wallow in my greif while I sit a home with the music low and nothing to interupt me. And I wish there was going to be something there but unfortunately there will not be and never will again. For today I was struck with tragic news of my dog's death. I wish I didn't have to hear those words from my sister's mouth but there she was sitting with me in my room telling me what happened. Gradually she warmed up to asking me how I was doing and such.

From what I know, he had a run in with wild boar at our friend's ranch. He usually takes them when he goes so they can run and romp about. He and Penny, my friend's dog, went out and Penny didn't come back until a few hours later, she was really messed up. Thankfully, she was not too badly injured. A few hours had passed and so our friend went out with a few of his own friends to search for Sess. Soon, night was upon them and they didn't find Sess. So, my friend went out the next morning to a creek Sess really loved to play in. That is where he found him, on the ground, dead with no life in him and a puncture wound to his lung.

Even as I write this, those tears keep on coming. I can't stop for the life of me, because really I was attached to this creature in more ways than anyone could understand. Perhaps some of you who may come upon this journal will think I am stupid. Go ahead and think what you will for you will probably not understand. You do not know me nor do you know my past; those being the reasons why I loved that dog. From the first time I held him in my arms at the Humane Society and even right now, he is special. If he had lived until October, he would be two years old. Now I feel torn and useless, it feels as if something is now missing. Dogs do go to heaven right?

Here is my small shrine to my one of a kind dog: My Beautiful and Go Lucky Puppy

Saddened and alone, you will reach for something that is no longer there. Ripping of flesh, crimson tears, left with only regret and still I fear I am nothing. Do not miss me, do not love me, do not wish you would of told me that you loved me or that you even cared. Lies they all are as I hear they go into my ears. This story I leave before you, is the only thing you deserve from me. You were my demise...perhaps I wouldn't have fallen into my darkened abyss.

Hi-yah! Take that! And that! Muwahaha! o_o; -cough- I got a little too excited I think. Anyways, in my CD Player right now is as follows:

Gackt - Arittake no Ai de, Gackt - Metamorphoze, Shadow Hearts II:Covenant, FFVII Original Soundtrack

So...what's in your CD player? (Or MP3 player, whatever you got! =D)

 

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Well, I went to the mall last week...several actually. I bought me self a Sesshoumaru plushie and Naraku t-shirt. Yay! Naraku is a hot! =D Anywho, yea...that's what I went to do. I also went to check out the Alamo and Rivercener. I hadn't been in there in a while so it was type to go and scope it out. Let's see what else. Oh yes! I went out of town and partahed! I had fun and maybe had a few more drinks that I could of handled but I made it out okay and that's alll that matters! Right...right...hehe ^_^ I'll spare the details of the party for...err..confindential purporses.

Well...it so happens that I didn't stay up as long as I wanted to. I did, however, stay up until 9:30. Maybe tonight will be different but I some what doubt it. The computer always helps but like the day before didn't help much. I could always drink that 'Monster' energy drink. Maybe that will work? Yes! I shall try it! And maybe listening to dance music will help too...o_o; Maybe I could even dance the para para dance! Or maybe Mana's dance in Je Te Veux...or Gardenia...or even...dun dun dun! Gekka No Yasoukyoku! =D Yea...that's a plan. I'm surprised to be even writing in this thing because I never do. First time ever...twice a month! Which reminds me, I have to put some time aside to my website. I haven't done so in a long while. Oh yea...before I forget. It rained! ^_^ I loves the rain and it did. Only drawback...it's cold...blah! Ah well...still great!

On a final note...WATCH JAY LENO AND CONAN O'BRIEN!!!!  

Well, I don't know if this classifies as 'testing' myself. I've been up since...maybe 10:30 yesterday. And it's 7:30 on a monday morning. So far...this is day two that I have been awake. So far, been awake for 21 hours about. Wow? Maybe? Er...maybe not? Well, I don't have anything to do today. Tomorrow, Job Hunting! Yay! I need a better job, some of the people at my job...just annoy me. I try to get along with everyone and I am nice but once you cross that line. You are out of the ballgame! Does anyone feel the same way? I don't think it's wrong.

Anywho, my sister came to visit with her dog. How cute he is! Which reminds me, I have to update my 'doggy' page with the new pictures! Will have to do that soon. Oh! Did everyone hear? Gackt is having a X Mas concert! I wish I could go; but, I doubt that I will have the money by then. Well, actually, I might depending where I work.  Anyways...finally I wrote something in here! Hope you enjoy!

Peace!

Being lost in the darkness, alone without a guide. Forever I await you...will you ever come for me? This sudden depression that comes to me, leaves me with regret...
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Behind these crimson tears lies one who does not wish to live. Slowly I fall into a hole with my eyes closed. Wind kissing my skin...pale cheeks...soft lips...someone there; watching me. Not wanting me to go...

 

Well, it's been on hell of a 2004. And now for the year of 2005. What will it bring for one such as myself? Going through all of these changes and passages; levels of life. I wonder if sometimes anyone else, of any age, thinks of this. It can and is possible...but anyway. I had to work today too! I didn't get out until 10:30! Man, I was pissed. I spent my New Years Eve working and putting up with people bullshit. >.

HAPPY NEW YEARS!! HAVE FUN EVERYONE!!

Well, I just got back from going out of town to visit my native town where I grew up. I stayed with my family and hung out with some friends. I even made a few new friends which is cool. They are awesome to hang out with and I should go down there more often. I had fun and got some great gifts from my family. Everything was wonderful. It was the best time I've had since I've been visiting. I can't wait to go back again. Perhaps during Spring Break...I will have fun! HA! ^.^